When you start to really know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and body but not your heart. And that’s why, when you really connect with a person’s inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant.
Lisa Unger (via tasmanianchild)
This makes so much sense, every other boyfriend I’ve ever had after month 3 I would start nitpicking and noticing all the flaws. This one though, the more I get the know him the more attracted I am to him. I think I may have found the one.
I want to sit with someone at 3 am and talk. Like really talk. I want you to tell me what keeps you up at night, that dream you keep having, what certain songs make you feel like, what you think happens after death. Talk to me about your family and your dreams.
I would like…
…to put on my prettiest black dress, get all dolled up, put on my favorite heels and go sit at the park with you. Let’s share a Sundae, I’ll even let you have the cherry because I know it’s your favorite. Push me on the swing and laugh at my silly puns. I want you to share your fears and motivations. I want you to get so honest that it may even hurt me but I want it out and then I want you to take me home. I just want to feel closer to you than I’ve ever felt with anyone else and it scares me so much.
I want to be honest and sober.
All I want…
…is a new tattoo and to stop feeling insecure about my self.
My current boyfriend’s ex attacked me through his snapchat…I am not quite sure why but this bothers me way beyond what it should. I don’t care about her, I can never see him going back to her because well she screwed him over so royally he’d have to be insane to do it but for some reason her catty remarks and just the manner of it has bothered me. I can’t let it go. I can’t shake it.
He’s shared things that should bother me much more and I’ve been able to let them go, because they are in the past I can’t change it but this…this bothers me oh so much. I keep trying to figure out why and nothing comes to mind because I know it shouldn’t bother, I know I need to let it go and we’ve talked it out until we both lapsed into silence just to think about everything we had to say and still STILL after all of that it bothers me. Gahhh it bothers me so much I think that’s why I’ve had a migraine for 3 days and I can’t shake it.
Anyone have any ideas on how to make this stop bothering me?!